I’m counting the days until you’re in my arms again. I am missing you when you are not with me and I feel happy when you are around.
I am trying to make peace with time so that it would be so kind to go by faster and not as much excruciating as it is right now.
Anyone has been following The Newsroom, a TV show from HBO (imdb)? Well if you haven’t and you would like to enjoy some good television, The Newsroom is the perfect choice. The show is, hmm how to say, rich, with a touch of humor, just enough to make you wanna watch more and more stories it bring. The main characters are strong and well played by the actors. Don’t just take my words for it, try watch one episode, I very much recommend the pilot episode, and get yourself captivated by Will McAvoy and The Newsroom 🙂
The Newsroom, HBO TV series by Aaron Sorkin
“A man wants to be a woman’s first love, a woman wants to be his last.” – Oscar Wilde
Just in case you are in a relationship where your partner suffers from retroactive jealousy, you may recommend him/her to read this article “10 Ways to Deal With Your Partner’s Sexual Past (Because You Have To)”. I found it captivating and make you go, dang, that’s so true.
For those of you who are not familiar with the term retroactive jealousy, to make things simple, it is basically (near if not obsessive) jealousy over past (mostly sexual) relationships of our partners. This jealousy is not to be cured, instead, it needs to be dealt with.
From my retrospect, it should not matter how many sexual partners your current loved ones have had in the past, how extravagant those sexual activities were for her, the only thing that matters is the fact that those partners are in the past and he or she is with you now in the present. Those experiences made your loved ones become who she or he is right now. The guy slash girl that you fell in love with. They don’t become half of the person of what they are because you found out about those experiences. It’s all in your mind, in your mind.
Stop judging them, don’t even come to think to blame them for this. Love them just the way you always do.
So I have another one! Err.. Yeay?!
I’m gonna start striking through all my previous posts that mention any affectionate calling to someone. Apparently this time, my past is not acceptable and or unforgettable by his standard. He said he wants to really ask himself whether he still wants this relationship because he wouldn’t want to insult me or say or do anything sarcastic to me in the future. I tried to convince him all night last night, which effect in me becoming a zombie at work right now. Even until this morning I still sent him a text saying how much I love him.
What I’m gonna do now is just stop trying. I don’t want to explain myself anymore. Heck I don’t need to explain myself ever. I will sleep it off tonight. Hopefully I will have enough nerve tomorrow to tell him that I will make everything easier for him and relinquish all promises that he made to me during the past several weeks. I will also tell him that I don’t mind, I will be hurt for a while, but Allah will take care of me. I will wish the best for him and try to save myself from further embarrassment.
I woke up this morning, checking if my love the almost lover has sent me a text message and was surprise to find that I got an email from this guy who I had a huge crush on earlier this year. The email was a nice Eid Mubarak greeting and of course I replied that nice gesture. I spent the day reminiscing the crush that I had for him and what could have been for both of us if only he is not married and a perfect family man. I stopped pursuing such feeling because hey, nothing good ever comes from anything bad, right?
On another note, I have had someone whom I pray for on my private sessions with God. So it seems like it is felt true that there’s a silver lining to each cloud, with some sprinkles of diamonds on my case.
I am counting the days until we are gonna be together. There is not a day I don’t miss you. There is not a second I don’t think of you.
If only I can fast forward time, I would skip through all these lonely days and go straight to those where we are together, embracing life in joy and happiness.
If only I can stop time from ever moving, I would freeze the moments where we are together, sharing love and trust, from ever passing.
I love you honey.. I cannot wait to be yours forever.
When you meet someone new of opposite sex and find that you have instant connection with that particular someone, comes two feelings emerging at once. These two feelings are hope and fear.
Hope that this someone could probably be the one you spend the rest of your life with and build the future together with you both in this life and the after life.
Fear that this someone is probably not the one you presume him to be and exist only to find amusement from a fragile soul.
No matter what you do, until that day of clarity comes, these two feelings will always coexist, crawling their way inside you, savagely occupying your minds. Until that time, there’s only God that you can count on to give you sustenance.
When I’m being treated unfair at work.
When there is obviously double standards.
When my boss try to make me feel better by telling me that I can get things that I no longer want just because I pointed out how come my other colleague got one of those so easily from him.
When I found out that my colleague earn almost twice of what I earn even when I feel like we put same amount of effort at work.
When there’s alot of pressure being thrown at me while others who should also be responsible seem so relax.
When I found out that my ex loved someone else while at the same time he claimed that he loved me.
When I remember the time my father comforted me after I spilled my ice cream in a fried chicken place when I was a kid.
When I remember the time my mother held my hand walking the aisle of a supermarket during a diaper accident when I was a kid.
Those were the times my eyes got misty.
Writing about them made the mists turn into tears..
There’s a saying that says that the only thing certain is uncertainty itself. I beg to differ. Death is another thing that’s certain. Too bad people often forget about this. They forget death. One day you’re happy, another day you’re sad. Today you’re rich, tomorrow you’re poor. You laugh your ass off in the morning, you wipe your tears in the evening. But your life can end anytime.
One thing for sure, you cannot expect status quo in life. Life is constant in its very nature by changing all the time. So do your best in life when you still have the chance. Until death comes and takes it all away.
Have you remembered death today?
I just stumbled into a blog which apparently is owned by an acquaintance of mine and he did such an amazing job with his posts, especially those related with traveling. Kudos. I guess writing is one of his talents after all. Kinda makes me wonder, will I do as good as job as he does if I decide to write my travel experiences? I know what’s the answer gonna be, Yes, as long as I put determination and strong will into it. The real question is, how eager am I to do that? I guess only time will tell.
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