The Stupidest Mistake

25Jun09

I made the stupidest mistake two days ago, talking about what I know could never ever be mentioned in this thing I’m in. Stupid, stupid. I don’t wanna talk about it with with anyone, cos any of them would probably say, I told you so.

Now I have to live with the consequences. I cannot take back what happened. Oh my God, I can’t believe I let myself brought up that topic. Very stupid. Whatever shit he thinks about me now is definitely for me to blame. And whatever thing he’s doing to handle what he thinks happened because of that conversation is also for me to blame.

I just hate myself so much right now. It will never be the same anymore. No more fun like it used to be. If only, if only. But nothing’s gonna change. What’s done is done. I’m just gonna disappear for a while. Detoxify myself.

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